The Story of the Moon

Possess: to be born with, to be endowed with, to be blessed with.

I have an ache in the palm of my hand that pulls so hard, I can feel the strings of the puppeteer tugging away at my life force.

This ache that steals my breath...

My body trembles with fear like there’s a gun being held so close to my head that I can hear the slight hesitation in your trigger finger, bang... it hurts... 

not at bad as the hole in my soul but it still stings... my ears ring so loud that I might think the liberty bell resides in the little town in my head, bang... goes my ear drums as they give out due to this torturous sound.... 

Frozen in time, my body stood floating in gaping despair.

De(bt)pth

There is depth in color.

You can not organize the human race.

We cannot be categorized or sorted neatly from A to Z.

Last name first comma first name, first name first comma last, a beginning and end with no blank space left for your middle initial/

which is interesting when you consider that the Alpha and the Omega has taken care of both the end and the beginning so we are really only left with what lies in between (the middle initial)/

Lack of information leads to frustration/

A relationship without trust leads to manipulation/

Which is the ultimate devastation of any situation/

I am not a distraction, I am not a temptation.

I am seeking only that, which is of salvation.

Self medication via meditation…

I haven’t always been good at striking poses,

honestly you’d get a much better portrait of me if you captured me in motion...

My emotional range isn’t that of a tea spoon.

It’s more of a monsoon.

Rationalization is not the cure for the common cold.

Realization makes you aware of the symptoms of the cold/

Even immunization still leaves you susceptible to that very same cold.

(I thank God)

I am grateful for depression because I feel like it’s just a label to a certain sort of expression.

It is the ability to introspect yourself into a layer of Dante’s inferno…

but every action has an equal but opposite reaction. 

(I thank God)

I am so grateful for this gaping pit of despair because when I make it back to my solid foundation,

I understand that there is some sort of reciprocation...

I can fly!

I can think of scenarios that are on the level of only SpongeBob’s imagination.

Dreams, desires, and divine intervention/

Woe unto you who preaches a lie,

Only fools think that they are wise when telling lies…

What is a curse, but a blessing in disguise?

A blessing is always a blessing to those who are wise.

God gave us voices to vocalize.

Constant introspection is only a deception of the enemy.

We have to begin to really utilize all of our supplies.

Consistency is a constant clog in the drain of divisive and tumultuous toxins welded together into a mock vessel that is not comparable to the materials that God used to create His own mold...

When will niggas understand that if you’re caught up in lust,

then you’re automatically in your feelings?

That’s just the truth of the matter. 

If finding a fuck is in focus then you’re bound by worldly pleasures piddo.

So no, fucking bitches doesn't make you as hard as you think. 

Instead, you’ve been proving all along that you’re as soft as a cone of ice cream.

Automatic ass tasks.

You’re done with dreaming, forever fantasizing about a fuck to give or a father to save your life.

I’m tired of living a life where on any given day, another person can feel more entitled to my body than I do.

In order to negate the cycle, we must explore and express the evaluation of the cycle in itself.

I play dumb so often that it has become a nervous habit…

Today’s society has made our phones a last will and testimony.

I just want everyone to know that we don’t have to communicate with each other via divine intervention or telepathy....

I appreciate where you were at on Sunday.

The point is that you’re here.

I don’t care how you got here.

We all had to get here some kind of way, but that isn’t the point.

The point is that we are all here.

We all have to get here so we can go.

Together. His people.

Together as people. 

Is this the happiness that y’all have been looking for?

Is bliss the peace of mind you’ve been longing for?

The pressure of the chip on your shoulder is as great as the depths of the ocean floor.

Alleviate unnecessary added pressure.

I thank God for panic attacks.

If it weren’t for a brief moment of hysteria following a slightly stressful situation,

I’m pretty sure I would have several misdemeanor (and maybe even federal) charges impending.... 

Panic attacks are literally the definition of yeeting the Devil.

The Holy Ghost will snatch you up so quickly that your shell of existence is left only to be occupied by that which exists outside of Him....

Anxiousness, loneliness, fear....

it is the time that passes following that moment that is ultimately scary.

Even though my spirit has remained fully intact, my body died for a brief moment...

what is time experienced in despair?

It is an eternity,

a lifetime of emptiness...

only to be cut short by His saving grace.

My writing makes me seem horribly depressed...

but it’s important to remember that I am filled with joy.

I have been blessed with the gift of hope.

Yes I do struggle with depression and that is reflected in my writing...

but I live a life filled with love, growth, and laughter. 

Just because I can rationalize a symptom, that doesn’t make it go away.. 

If you have to say something aloud to someone else,

I can guarantee that it is you, yourself, who needs to hear it the most.

A house is not a home,

inside a head,

atop of a body,

which exists in a space,

in the universe,

and so and and so forith.

Birthday fakes.

I heard how you said it long before you realized how you meant it.

It’s like y’all need me to be happy so badly that when I’m alone,

I feel like I have no choice but to live in sadness as a place of reprieve.

People are scared to do something new because it doesn’t always bring a multitude of views.

How do you delete a space?

I’m not looking for someone to blame,

I’m trying to find a way to fix it...

what I can,

that is... 

I told you that I will always make things right if you keep moving along.

Why were you trying to figure out where you went wrong?

By now, I hope that you know that nothing is impossible.

Even when it looks like there is no way out, there is always a way up.

I tried to rationalize a rape.

I’ve spent so many days Day dreaming that I have night visions

Visual flashbacks and physical flashbacks

It’s just a matter of time, we kind of have to let it happen because God is going to make it happen. 

What space does the soul inhabit while you sleep?

Where does the soul cycle during sleep?

I never wanted you to leave. I always wished that you could stay. It’s so hard to walk away. But today is a new day.

The sun shines so bright on the south side of Chicago.

Summer’s cycle, cycle on, motorcycle ride along, hands on his waist, longing for a taste, but sweet temptation will never sway fate./