Did I say that?
A word cleanse…
I have to keep reminding myself to listen to what I am saying...like really do any of us actually hear what we are saying?!
I KNOW that have been so scared to hear myself, because I have nothing left to say but the truth...
I have a potty mouth... why I have a potty mouth is a tangent that I am currently exploring while taking a can of scrubbing bubbles to the situation...
...in less colorful terms, God is helping me to understand my own words and the power behind them... I have been a writer my entire life...
(you’ll catch me saying that about a lot of things, but it’s the truth.)
I believe that I have always been pulled towards communication in general, but my love of words was definitely reinforced by my mother. Mom loves books and big words!!! True story, my mom would express her disdain with us with very precise word choice...it’s actually terrifying.
That really fueled the fire that is my nerd love of all things wordy! That, and I used to read the Bible daily as a kid...which is a whole other childhood tangent...
Anyways, I love words so much, and what not, but I’m depressed and anxious AF! I have plethora of mental health disorders to attend to, so my words have gotten a bit jumbled up over the course of life with these disorders... so I’m rediscovering a lot, and one of those things is actually hearing wtf I’m actually saying... like really...
WE TELL ON OURSELVES! HUMANS ARE CREATURES OF PROJECTION! If you’re mean to yourself, I know it cause you mean to me too... AND VICE VERSA!!!! 110/100 times if you feel the need to really assert your opinion into/onto anyone or anything *leans in closely* then it is YOU, YOURSELF! (The person who’s opinion it is) who needs to hear it the most!!!
*drops mic*
Im going to leave that there and say, this Lenten season, I gave myself away. I have noticed that I basically verbally abuse myself in my head and that probably isn’t healthy. God is helping me with it though... by changing my language, by changing the way that I communicate, and so much more...
We know that life is balance and truly everything is one in the same... so when I have been speaking, I have been trying to listen to what I’m saying and be conscious and intentional with my words, just as my mother taught me... and I’ve been telling on myself... have you?
Bold = a state of mind or perspective.
The words are the verbal manifestation of the state of mind or perspective!
Manic | Optimistic | Subjective | Mental
“Things could get worse, but they are going to get better.”
Depressed | Realistic | Objective | Physical
“Things could get better, but they are going to get worse.”
Instead of being proud, remember to be thankful, joyful, overjoyed, glad...
Narcissus | Self-concerned
I am proud.
Empathisus | Selfless
I am overjoyed, I am glad.